Today is the day

I am getting ready as we speak to get in the car with E and drive to the Cancer Center for genetic testing. I woke up scared, and nervous and wanting to curl up with E and cry. I know that it shouldn't be this complicated, and I shouldn't be this scared but I truly am. E is trying his hardest to be understanding. and I am so grateful that he will be with me today. I can't imagine doing this alone.